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What does the free fall feel like?
Asks the boy with a spark in his eye
Know why the nightingale sings
Is the answer to everything


He has long learned to keep his real questions to himself. A condescending smile, a mocking glance, a dismissive retort; that is what he will receive, and he needs none of it. Instead, he asks himself, and dreams of the answers.

Instead, he inters himself in the philosophy of other worlds, the history and mythology and expression of aliens his peers could never understand, simply because they don't want to. Through them, he grasps enlightenment.

"The boy has his head in the clouds. He's not fit for Prydon, and certainly not to be a Time Lord."

They think he can't hear them bickering over his fate, or they don't care. All it does, really, is confirm his success.

Theta Sigma is a rebel without a cause, a callow layabout, a tragedy of wasted potential.

Taking a step to the world unbound
Spinning my fantasies all around
Freed from the gravital leash
I swear the heaven's in my reach


He does just enough to pass muster, just enough to gain what he needs. It's a step towards a goal they cannot comprehend, towards freedom they cannot grasp.

"I've noticed that your grades are consistently…"

"The bare minimum?" His grin, bright and large and nonchalant, has convinced many a person of his apathy. Borusa has long realised it looks out of place.

"What do you hope to achieve?" Always so frustrated, so bewildered, which puts him above the rest who simply accept.

"I like my free time."

He maps the universe in his head, highlighting every planet he wants to visit, every wrong he wants to right, every wonder he wants to see. He plans a revolution with his best friend, turning his world into what it ought to be.

He reaches for the stars.

Dancing with the spirit of the air
In this ocean so open and fair
Making love to the gods above
On my maiden voyage so bold


For too long, he cannot find them. They're dimmed by despair as his dreams are smothered. All that's left, in the end, is darkness.

Isolation becomes his only comfort when the last ties to his ideals wither away.

Then his granddaughter is born, and she asks why the nightingale sings.

"Grandfather, are we really going to do it? Can we really run away?" She's so filled with the awe and enthusiasm he used to know.

"Of course we can, my dear! The question is if we want to. It's going to be very difficult. We can never come back."

"I know."

Together, they soar into the stars he'd almost forgotten.

Landing safely to the blue lagoon
Don't know if this is the earth or the moon
Joy of living is no more a mask
The Eden I found will forever last


He doesn't have a destination in mind, really. The old TARDIS is barely under his control; they're spiralling aimlessly through the Vortex, and it's the best feeling in the universe.

It will take some time for the barriers to weaken, for the bitterness to fade; he lost the child he was to the languor of Gallifrey, but Susan won't have to.

They land roughly, but harmlessly; they step onto alien sands, and hear the cries of strange birds, and walk beneath their sky.

Sometimes, he regrets. Sometimes he gets so frustrated he can't stand it. Sometimes he ponders simply going back and damn the consequences.

Yet he never does. Long after a human woman revives who he once was, after he leaves Susan to a steady life, he continues on, living the life he craved for centuries.

Migrating with the geese
My soul has finally found peace
Doesn't matter that man has no wings
As long as I hear the nightingale sing
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Would you do it with me?
Heal the scars and change the stars
Would you do it for me?
Turn loose the heaven within


The idealist grasped the cynic's hands beneath the amber skies, eyes wide with dreams that defied decades, voice high with joyous anticipation. He wanted to change the world, and then he wanted to leave and change the universe.

"People just need help, sometimes, and we can give it to them! I'm tired of just watching, I won't do it, I won't just accept that they know what's best. I can't." The cynic smiled, and shook his head, and squeezed his friend's hands.

"You can't change Gallifrey alone." His voice was lower, tethered to reality, but something like hope glinted in his eyes, dying embers in a night breeze.

"We can," the other said fervently, softly, as he leaned forward. "Together, right? I know you don't like it either."

His companion looked unconvinced, but he didn't argue.

"And if…if it turns out we can't. If people are too stubborn, and don't want to open their eyes, then… Then we can just go."

I'd take you away
Castaway on a lonely day
Bosom for a teary cheek
My song can but borrow your grace


His words were met with a sort of bemused awe.

"You want us to be renegades?" The question earned a wide grin.

"Yeah. Why not? It would be fun." His eyes were the colour of alien skies, and they glinted like secret stars.

"Give those stuffy bastards something to talk about, anyway." The cynic threw his head back and laughed, just as the idealist knew he would.

"Give them a hearts attack, more like." His smile was cool, and his voice was warm.

"All right then, Thete. Let's run away together and heal the stars."

Come out, come out wherever you are
So lost in your sea
Give in, give in for my touch
For my taste for my lust


They lose each other before the day comes, and they are alone when they run.

The idealist flourishes, and the cynic breaks.

For a long time, the healer tries to put the pieces back together, no matter how it makes him bleed. He never forgets the boy who dreamt and fought and cried with him.

Sometimes he sees himself in the shards.

Ever felt a way with me?
Just once, that's all I need
Entwined in finding you one day


As the centuries pass, the search becomes futile. They are now the saviour and the killer, champions of life and death.

"It is enough that your champion is disarmed. As victor I beg you to be merciful!"

They cannot be reconciled. They both wonder, sometimes, if there is anything left between them but loss and bloodshed.

"You do not understand hatred as I understand it. Only hate keeps me alive. Why else should I endure this pain?"

They still cannot kill each other permanently, or directly. Affection and admiration are twisted together with disgust and infuriation.

"A cosmos without the Doctor scarcely bears thinking about."

Ever felt a way without me?
My love, it lies so deep
Ever dream of me?


Everything has its time, and everything dies. Hope fades, strength yields, love decays.

"Doctor, help me! I'll give you anything in creation! Would you show no mercy to your own…"

The idealist watches the cynic burn to ashes that will forever stain his hands. Both of them die here.

Your beauty cascaded on me
In this white knight fantasy


He has done what is right, and failed his oldest friend. This, too, haunts him as he struggles towards new life.

"No, my dear Doctor, you must die. Die, Doctor. Die, Doctor!"

For a moment, he wonders if it is a fair request. The thought burns like everything else and as he dies he decides that no, one of them must go on.


Album List
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1. Stargazers [Lyrics]
2. The Kinslayer [Lyrics]
3. She Is My Sin [Lyrics]
4. Ever Dream [Lyrics]
5. Come Cover Me [Lyrics]
6. Know Why The Nightingale Sings [Lyrics]
7. Bless The Child [Lyrics]
8. End Of All Hope [Lyrics]
9. The Riddler [Lyrics]
10. Sleepwalker [Lyrics]
11. Crownless [Lyrics]
12. Sacrament Of Wilderness [Lyrics]
13. Walking In The Air [Lyrics]
14. Beauty And The Beast [Lyrics]
15. Wishmaster [Lyrics]
16. Over The Hills And Far Away [Lyrics]
17. Sleeping Sun [Lyrics]

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